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Read Speak of Me as I Am Read & Download ↠ PDF, eBook or Kindle ePUB free â Sonia Belasco Sonia Belasco â 5 Summary End Carlos who chose to kill himself rather than reveal his secretThrough a staged production of Othello through the lens of Damon’s camera and through the strokes of Melanie’s paintbrush the two teens find that rather than moving on from their losses they can learn to live with their own corners of sadness esp. Thank you Philomel Books and NetGalley for my advanced review copy of Speak of Me as I AmBe aware that Speak of Me as I Am deals with death cancer suicide and has some offensive language All of this is discussed down below in my review There will be spoilers in this review so consider yourself warnedSpeak of Me as I Am is a story about two teenagers Melanie and Damon who have both dealt with an immense loss but in different ways The story made me cry and there were several scenes I enjoyed in the moment however there is a lot about this book that bothered me I see what this story is trying to do It wants to show us how grief is something we just have to live with and how there are so many different ways we experience it and are faced with it I really wanted to love this book but it fell short in so many ways and was even hurtful at times insteadThe story is about Melanie who lost her mother to cancer and Damon who lost his best friend to suicide Damon is a black teen who we see throughout the book dealing with the loss of Carlos who is Salvadoran and his best friend Carlos was a photographer and left all of his photos and his camera behind and with those Damon clings to his memory and the feelings he carries around with him regarding Carlos suicide Throughout the book we find out about Carlos hard home life but despite this the reader gets a feeling there is something we don t know about Carlos death yet What we towards the end of the book find out is something Damon himself first releases after Carlos death Carlos was in love with Damon which was very clear in the photographs Carlos left behind He was a master at that at avoiding getting too deep He could be evasive as hell But it was all so clear in those photos all these pictures he took of me but never showed me I wait but he doesn t say anything His hands are shaking What Damon I ask What was so clear Damon takes in a deep breath and lets it go all at once The way he looked at me he saysTo me the story reads as if Carlos killed himself because he was in love with a man his best friend Damon and it very much falls into the bury your gays trope The fact that Carlos was gay or bisexual his sexuality was never defined felt very much like a plot device and like it only existed to make the main character Damon feel ashamed that he didn t know and support his best friend sooner despite him not feeling the same way The way Carlos sexuality was used felt cheap because it only served as a way to give the main character meaning to his suicide and I think it could have been dealt with in a lot of other better ways and still convey the story s main messageHowever we have another character in the story that also plays a large part and that is Tristan Tristan has been Melanie s best friend since they were kids and he is gay In the beginning of the story I was scared he would fall into the gay best friend trope however I did feel that his character got its own subplot and his character was fleshed out which is why I think he becomes much than just the best friend Nonetheless I had issues with his subplot During the course of the book Tristan s rich and political parents find out he s gay and their reaction is to send him to a therapist that is a family friend in the hopes to cure him They force him to go by forbidding him to be a part of the school play unless he meets with this therapist This is not okay you cannot cure homosexuality and to even see it suggested in YA book is saddeningA few other things I had a problem with in Speak of Me as I Am was the fact that the black characters skin was described using food comparisons for example in the book we see one character described as he has his mother s dark almond shaped eyes and father s espresso skin and our main character Damon is described by the other main character Melanie like His skin s the color of latte with dark wiry hair and eyes so green they d make Kermit jealous Another instant that bothers me was how the main character Damon was supposed to be understanding and accepting yet used the fa word a homophobic slur in a conversation with his cousin who thinks theater is gay Down below are two uotes that I thought were offensive and that involve this homophobic slur trigger warning for the fa wordFirst uote Really You don t think that s kind of fucking gay Jackson finishes It s the first thing he s contributed to the conversation No actually I say I don t think it s particularly homosexual that I m participating in the play All the theater kids are straight up fags Jackson states Yeah D he s not lying Prague says Oh really I say leaning forward in my seat How do you know this Jackson You spend a lot of time hanging with the theater kids Second uote Prague looks down at his shoes shoulders slumping It ain t like that D we were just being Ignorant right I say Because that makes it better What re you afraid of Prague That you re gonna catch the faggot bug First of all when you call someone out on the page for their homophobic and ignorant statements you don t actually imply or insinuate that they are gay too and if you are so accepting yourself you should never use the fa word to describe a gay person even if you say it with sarcasm You cannot show how offensive a word is by using it yourselfThe book also showed ableism which is seen in the following uote I give him this pathetic little half wave in return a scrunching of my fingers that probably makes me look like I m physically disabled Verdict This book is offensive in ways than one and I would seriously advise you to read it with caution if at all This book has a lot of elements that can be hurtful to marginalized readers and I hope my review has shed some light on why that is All of my uotes and conclusions comes from the ARC provided to me There may be differences between the ARC and the final version Abducted yourself warnedSpeak of Me as I Am is a story about two teenagers Melanie and Damon who have both dealt with an immense loss but in different ways The story made me cry and there were several scenes I enjoyed in the moment however there is a lot about this book that bothered me I see what this story is trying to do It wants to show us how grief is something we just have to live with and how there are so many different ways we experience it and are faced with it I really wanted to love this book but it fell short in so many ways and was even hurtful at times insteadThe story is about Melanie who lost her mother to cancer and Damon who lost his best friend to suicide Damon is a black teen who we see throughout the book dealing with the loss of Carlos who is Salvadoran and his best friend Carlos was a photographer and left all of his photos and his camera behind and with those Damon clings to his memory and the feelings he carries around with him regarding Carlos suicide Throughout the book we find out about Carlos hard home life but despite this the reader gets a feeling there is something we don t know about Carlos death Long Time Dead The Iphigenia Black Series #2 you cannot cure homosexuality and to even see it suggested in YA book is saddeningA few other things I had a problem with in Speak of Me as I Am was the fact that the black characters skin was described using food comparisons for example in the book we see one character described as he has his mother s dark almond shaped eyes and father s espresso skin and our main character Damon is described by the other main character Melanie like His skin s the color of latte with dark wiry hair and eyes so green they d make Kermit jealous Another instant that bothers me was how the main character Damon was supposed to be understanding and accepting Legacy of Blood Runescape #3 yet used the fa word a homophobic slur in a conversation with his cousin who thinks theater is gay Down below are two uotes that I thought were offensive and that involve this homophobic slur trigger warning for the fa wordFirst uote Really You don t think that s kind of fucking gay Jackson finishes It s the first thing he s contributed to the conversation No actually I say I don t think it s particularly homosexual that I m participating in the play All the theater kids are straight up fags Jackson states Yeah D he s not lying Prague says Oh really I say leaning forward in my seat How do Sands of the Scorpion Mission Survival #3 you know this Jackson You spend a lot of time hanging with the theater kids Second uote Prague looks down at his shoes shoulders slumping It ain t like that D we were just being Ignorant right I say Because that makes it better What re The Hat Shop on the Corner you afraid of Prague That Biggles Defies the Swastika you re gonna catch the faggot bug First of all when Noughts Crosses (Noughts And Crosses Book 1) you call someone out on the page for their homophobic and ignorant statements The Philby Affair you are so accepting Highland Fling yourself The Silent Witness A Novel you should never use the fa word to describe a gay person even if Dynamite HoleReal Life yourselfThe book also showed ableism which is seen in the following uote I give him this pathetic little half wave in return a scrunching of my fingers that probably makes me look like I m physically disabled Verdict This book is offensive in ways than one and I would seriously advise

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Read Speak of Me as I Am Read & Download ↠ PDF, eBook or Kindle ePUB free â Sonia Belasco Sonia Belasco â 5 Summary Ecially because they’re not doing so alone And it is only by being honest with themselves that they can begin to find some small bit of peaceThis multi cultural story shows readers that grief comes in all shapes sizes and colors and that love and pain can bind people together even as they threaten to tear us apar. Grief is complicated People who see the grieving process as a path toward closure are missing the point Grief is not about closure it is about coping in the present We may spend our entire lives grieving for someone and this can still be a way of coming to terms with that loss We re a society of pretenders Melanie murmurs

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Read Speak of Me as I Am Read & Download ↠ PDF, eBook or Kindle ePUB free â Sonia Belasco Sonia Belasco â 5 Summary A moving story of grief honesty and the healing power of art the ties that bind us together even when those we love are goneMelanie and Damon are both living in the shadow of loss For Melanie it’s the loss of her larger than life mother taken by cancer well before her time For Damon it is the loss of his best fri. TRIGGER WARNINGS homophobia some strong offensive and gross language and you can be cured shit and suicidethis was a really good story about grief and losing people you love and care about Melanie is grieving over her mom who died from cancer and Damon is grieving the loss of his best friend Carlos who commit suicide Damon takes Carlos camera to a park to try and understand him better and sees a girl Melanie crying he snaps her picture and after an awkward meeting scurries out of there these two meet again and slowly become friends while finding out who they really are things i liked this book has such a beautiful and diverse cast of characters our main character Damon is a black kid who loves theater Carlos is latino and ueer and Tristan is gay everybody needs a Tristan in their life he s Melanie s bff and he s so supporting loving funny and loyal he genuinely made me laugh and he s such a sweetheart akdhskhdkshdjahsgsj i love how he s always asking Melanie about juicy details and when he gets asked about his night with his boyfriend he goes all pink and embarrassed what a dork i love himhe might not be the main character but i love how his problems and life were discussed he wasn t just brushed off as a side character who shows up once in a while because he s the main characters bff he hasn t came out to his parents because they won t accept his sexuality and it sucks that he has to go through that it s really shitty when you can t come out to the people you love and care about in his case his family because you know they won t accept you or support you and akhcksjd it fucking sucks grief is also handled well i love this one scene where Damon felt confused angry upset and hurt at Carlos for leaving him all alone and not telling him and then immediately apologized for feeling that way and then Melanie told him that he had nothing to be sorry for and that it s perfectly okay and valid for someone to feel the way they re feeling there s nothing wrong with grieving ALSO Damon was called gay and a fag i hate using this word ugh but it s mentioned a couple of times in the book JUST because he liked acting and I LOVED how he called those assholes out people can enjoy acting and theater no matter who they are being called that word just because a boy likes theater is just complete bullshit it also shows how society has gender roles for men and how being interested in something like theater isn t manly and you should be made fun of for itUNLIKEABLE THINGSokay but Melanie s character felt really bland it s probably just me but i felt no connection towards her at all but she was such a sweet character but i didn t care for her lmaothere was also a lot of focus on Melanie and Damon s romance they were cute and all but i didn t care much for their romance ALSO there is this one scene where Tristan s dad sees Tristan kissing his boyfriend and wants him to join therapy which Tristan tells Melanie so he can cure the gay and it wasn t really talked about like the book didn t discuss how harmful and disgusting that is for someone to tell a ueer person and that really bugged me another thing is that Tristan s contact name was fag the hag or something in Melanie s phone but it had the word fag in it and i was so confused and grossed out also when Tristan called Melanie to talk about how his dad found out about him i felt like she wasn t a really good friend then or that supportive Tristan was stressed and afraid about how his family and friends would think about him and though Melanie did tell him that he has nothing to be ashamed of she just goves a pat on the back and comforts him for five minutes and then never asks him how he s doing later on i understand she s grieving but she was really selfish to not comfort her friend later on idkoverall it was an okay book but as i ve mentioned a lot of things made me uncomfortable


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  • Hardcover
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  • Speak of Me as I Am
  • Sonia Belasco
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  • 02 January 2019
  • 9780399546761